Frustrated

I'm so frustrated with my situation right now... Between my room mate and the other stuff I'm having to deal with and not to mention a new semester of classes which is really stressful... I just hate this I had such a good break but I really missed my friends but now that I'm back I almost wish I wasn't... I'm already uber fed up and the first week of the new semester isn't even over yet... Ugh this sucks royally no joke =(

Ugh

OK things have seriously sucked lately i hate it! AHHHHH! Hopefully things will get better soon... i'm attempting to stay positive no promises though

This week

So this week basically sucked. I had to deal with a lot of not fun stuff but thankfully it's almost over. Anyways loving college. I have made awesome new friends and I enjoy most of my classes lol... So yeah that's all i got lol... TTYL

Katie=)

Creative Writing

ok not much has happened lately... i've been uber busy... but some exciting news is that i think i did really good on my english paper... we had to write about a memory anyways i think it's awesome so check it out and let me know what you think...

Forbidden Memory
I know I have to do this. I dread the memory that I know is coming. Even now the memory is one of my favorites, but it brings with it the memory of everything I’ve lost. So I lock the door, I don’t want anyone to see my pain. I turn off all the lights. Now all I see is the glow of the computer sitting on my desk; a blank page waiting for me. Reluctantly, I look up and see the CD player sitting at the top of the desk. It holds the key to unlocking the memories that I dare not remember. I slowly lift my hand to it; I let it linger for just a moment. I suck in a deep breath and close my eyes, and then I press the button.
The memory floods back into my mind with full force. I am no longer sitting at my desk; I am in my car. It’s spring time; all around you can see the beauty that it brings. The windows are down; the wind blows my hair in my face. The wind brings along with it the sweet smell of spring. It permeates the car; it is an intoxicating aroma that can not be escaped. Beneath me, I feel power; not just the power of the car but something stronger. It touches the car and everything in it in a way that words can not describe. I’m not alone in the car; there are three other faces that I know all to well. The first is the girl sitting right beside me. She is smiling; enjoying the ride every bit as much as I am. I dare not remember more than that otherwise I would lose this memory entirely. Next is the two girls sitting behind me. They are smiling and laughing; taking pictures of anything and everything. The four of us are best friends. We know each other as well as we know ourselves. We would give our lives for each other. It is spring break; we have not seen each other in a long time. We are happy to once again be together. Our time is limited, so we are doing everything that we love.
Slowly, the memory distorts and changes, this is the moment that I have feared. This is a painful memory that I wish I could erase. But none the less it comes, stronger and more hurtful than ever before. I see my three best friends. They stand before me, but this time we aren’t smiling. A dark truth has been revealed; a truth that would shatter the very core of our friendship. Slowly, one of the faces turns and walks away into the blackness. I beckon her back with all my strength. I call out in agony begging her to come back, but all I hear in return is the bitter silence. She, of the three, is my best friend. She is my other half. We have been through everything together. Something was different that time, even now I cannot seem to find the answer. Finally, she disappears completely, fading into the blackness. Nothing but pain fills the place where she once stood. I look at the other two faces; grateful that they are both still there. But as I look closer, I see the change. Pain had aged them just as it had to me. We were different. You could feel the chasm between us. We were still friends, but the bond that we had once shared was gone. It was nothing more than a memory.
The song ends. I am pulled back from my memories. Silent tears run down my face. I can still feel the emptiness, the hollow hole in my heart. I feel relief that I can once again bury the memories.

[Some of our favorite memories can bring pain with them]- this is the theme of the paper (requirement lol)

change

ok so i orginal made this blog so i could post my new material, but i found out that if i do a blog for my computer class i get extra credit so i'm gonna use it for that... i should still b doing the same stuff but i might add a little more 2 lol... so neways new lyrics no melody yet but working on it lol... enjoy!

Rock!
Lyrics by Katie Stinnett

All I want to do is rock out
Feel the drums beneath my feet
Sing my heart out all night long
Never gonna stop
cause I just wanna rock

Never ending days at school
Stuck in the same old rut
Music is in my soul
And I gotta let it out

All I want to do is rock out
Feel the drums beneath my feet
Sing my heart out all night long
Never gonna stop
cause I just wanna rock

Can’t stop this feeling
It’s stronger than all of us
So come one grab a guitar
And let’s rock

Freedom

Life has been hard lately i've lost a lot of things that i love... and i love my home but sometimes u need to get away and that's what i'm doing it's time...

There’s too much pain here
I can’t take it anymore
Feeling alone in a crowded room
And being betrayed by the ones you love
There has to be more than this pain filled world

Let’s run away just you and me
It doesn’t matter where we go
Let’s leave the past where it belongs
And keep moving on
It’s time go so say goodbye
Because we’re gone

I’m so tired of all this just leave me alone
And let me be me, please
Stop lying and just tell me the truth
Because I don’t care anymore

Let’s run away just you and me
It doesn’t matter where we go
Let’s leave the past where it belongs
And keep moving on
It’s time go so say goodbye
Because we’re gone

I don’t need this, I don’t need you
I can make it on my own
So no looking back I’m gone

Let’s run away I’m on my own this time
It doesn’t matter where I go
I’ll still love you
But I have to leave the past where it belongs
And keep moving on
It’s time to say good bye and that I love you
Because I’m gone

For my lost friend and love

I wrote this one about Sean... he was(and still is in some ways) such a huge part of me... when he died i lost a part of myself... this year has been really hard without him... i accomplished so many things that he never got to do and it kills me... there isn't a day that goes by that i don't miss him and wish that he were here with me... so this like many other things i've written over the years is for him...


Even though you aren’t here
I can feel you
You’ve never left my side
And some days when life gets hard
I feel you holding me and know that you care
My only wish would be to see
You perfect face one last time
Because I never got to say goodbye

To say I miss you isn’t enough
To say I love you doesn’t describe the way I feel
It’s so much stronger
I need you more than anything
And would give it all to see you again

I never wanted it to end like this way
Filled with anger and tears
I would take it all back
And tell you the truth if I could
I wouldn’t have let you walk out the door
Had I only known our fate

To say I miss you isn’t enough
To say I love you doesn’t describe the way I feel
It’s so much stronger
I need you more than anything
And would give it all to see you again

Someday I will see again
And say the things that I’m dying to say
But until then I will keep wishing that you here
And holding on to the memories that we made